manners

dinner invitation, originally uploaded by McBeth.

I seek constantly to improve my manners and graces, for they are the sugar to which all are attracted.

-- Og Mandino

Pink Cadillac

pink plates, originally uploaded by McBeth.

While driving home this afternoon from a photo gig on the way to my new other job, Bruce Springsteen's song Pink Cadillac came on the radio channel I was listening to.

Now please don't mark me as unpatriotic or unAmerican or un-whatever, but Springsteen doesn't really do it for me. I've tried. I really have tried. But his groaning and moaning and poor elocution sound the same in most of his songs and at the very least, sounds the same in the Springsteen tunes I am familiar with.

Springsteen comes on ... Honey I just wonder what you do there in back of your pink Cadillac ... The hair at the nape of my neck bristled. Grr. Choices choices choices: sing along, be friendly with that which I don't feel fondly. Or. turn off the radio, which may require energy. Nope, I can't muster enough to do it. Or.

Or.
Or start chuckling in appreciation for perfect timing. Because right then a Very Successful Mary Kay lady commandeered her very big very shiny expensive car around the corner of the intersection I was waiting at.

The universe has a perversely satisfying sense of humor.

heading out

we're in no hurry, originally uploaded by McBeth.

It's over, and can't be helped, and that's one consolation, as they always says in Turkey, when they cuts the wrong man's head off.

-- Charles Dickens

Welcome, Isla

kd and isla, originally uploaded by McBeth.

I love a hand that meets my own with a grasp that causes some sensation.

-- Samuel Osgood

expectations

calla, originally uploaded by McBeth.

Life's under no obligation to give us what we expect.

-- Margaret Mitchell

slow down

hen, originally uploaded by McBeth.

He who pours water hastily into a bottle spills more than goes in.

-- Spanish proverb

how you look

sticking the mount, originally uploaded by McBeth.

Two men look out the same prison bars; one sees mud and the other stars.

-- Frederick Langbridge

smile though

the munchies, originally uploaded by McBeth.

Women need not always keep their mouths shut and their wombs open.

-- Emma Goldman

childhood reflections

funny faces for auntie mcb, originally uploaded by McBeth.

Childhood is not only the childhood we really had but also the impressions we formed of it in our adolescence and maturity. That is why childhood seems so long. Probably every period of life is multiplied by our reflections upon the next.

-- Cesare Pavese

in the garden

whisper right here, originally uploaded by McBeth.

While discussing some subject matter
that may have been relevant, timely
or possibly important,

The center of my left pupil connected to the center of her right pupil.
They locked.
I was fully aware that it was happening, as it happened.
This event lasted approximately four point two seconds.

Moments later I recognized the tremble of my exhilarated finger tip nerves,
and realized my life will never be the same.

up in the air

boiiiiing, originally uploaded by McBeth.

Think off-center.

-- George Carlin

numbers

how high can you get?, originally uploaded by McBeth.

It's clearly a budget. It's got a lot of numbers in it.

-- George W. Bush

culinary lesson

lunch date with KD, originally uploaded by McBeth.

Caste System

1. Brahmans: priests
2. Kshatriyas: royals or warriors
3. Vaisyas: merchants or professionals
4. Sudras: workers
5. Untouchables: beggars or diseased

inheritance

sideways glance, originally uploaded by McBeth.

We do not inherit the earth from our ancestors,
we borrow it from our children.

-- Native American proverb

begin here

so easy to open up to you, originally uploaded by McBeth.

Nourish beginnings, let us nourish beginnings. Not all things are blest, but the seeds of all things are blest.The blessing is in the seed.

-- Muriel Rukeyser

have a heart

drop by drop, originally uploaded by McBeth.

Talk on, talk on, but love is what you need.
And sooner or later that love is gonna make you bleed.

-- Bonnie Raitt

human being

dried up, originally uploaded by McBeth.

Focus your attention not on what you are doing but rather, who you are being.

barely blushing

her lips were so soft, originally uploaded by McBeth.

The spiritualization of sensuality is called love: it is a great triumph over Christianity.

-- Friedrich Nietzsche

okay

a body at rest, originally uploaded by McBeth.

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.

-- Virginia Satir

mother's day

there'll be no 'smile pretty and say cheese' here, originally uploaded by McBeth.

Oh, what a complicated blend of frustration, envy, anger, hopelessness, commitment and deep deep love I have with my mother.

I admire her for so so so many of her fine qualities. She is gentle, especially with the children she works with in the public schools, kids who don't have anything near that kind of compassion and patience with their own parents.

I was angry for a long time, probably too long, when my son was young, when my mom would let other people's kids call her 'gramma' because they either didn't know their own grandparents, or the kids' grandparents lived across the country, making relationship difficult. That's how she is though, giving out so much to others, sometimes more than I personally think she ought.

I'm sure I did things that embarrassed my mother along the years. I sometimes used my smart mouth to my own disadvantage, I have a vigorous stubborn streak (still).

I'd like to say to you today mom, I think we've done alright despite our imperfections. I continue to love you beyond measure. And I hope I am shaping up to be the person you hoped I'd grow up to be.

xo