'bye, sweet boy

'bye, sweet boy, originally uploaded by McBeth.

I just got home from the vet.

I am covered in stress-induced shedded hair from Artie.
He is not here with me.

He didn't come home.

He passed away being cuddled and whispered lovingly to which, I suppose, is something I gave (and will continue giving) absolutely and without reservation, perhaps with some small hope that the gesture will come back to me one day.

I know I did a responsible hard thing but I guess I'm surprised again at the ferocity of grief.